Monday, May 31, 2010

Awake and yawning!

Just took a bunch of pictures of the backyard. It's more awake than I am this morning!!!
 I took one of my "naps" again yesterday afternoon...woke up late last night, watched some tennis reruns (new matches don't start until 5:00 in the morning here), crocheted a little, talked to hubby, got a back rub, and went back to sleep.
 I woke up around 6:25 this morning. This would be a normal time for the average person, but for me...this is VERY LATE!!! I'm usually up right around 4:00. When hubby is working, it's 2:30!
  Now it's just a matter of figuring out what I'm going to do with this already shortened day!
  For sure some crocheting is going to be involved!! And I know my hair needs to be washed! (Don't you just love being party to my thinking mind randomly going through my day?!....Probably NOT! LOL)
 Maybe I'll finally add a new item to the shop! That would be a productive endeavor!...That is, if productive was what I was after today! :-))
  I think I'm going to be like this tree in my yard instead..I'll just hang around and take it as it comes. Maybe I'll even take another "nap"!
  Sounds like a plan to me!


A-nimals Alive.
B-abies Breathe.
C-hildren Corrected.
D-ictators Deceive.
E-very Envelope's,
F-ancy Frills.
G-entle Grasslands,
H-appy Hills.
I-nviting Innocence.
J-ust Joking,
K-indly Kidding.
L-azy Lumbering.
M-eandering Mudslides.
N-othing New.
O-pen Oceans.
P-icking Peas.
Q-uiet Quaking,
R-umbling Round.
S-ultry Surroundings.
T-insel Town.
U-nder Umbrellas,
V-ery Veiled.
W-ater Wasted.
X-rays ,X-hale.
Y-esterday's Young.
Z-ebra's Zoo.
(And now this nonsensical
poem is through!)

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Every day...!

  I woke up in a really good mood yesterday! Even though my body was feeling like it had been hit by a train...which it always does anyway! I was looking forward to the full-blown sunshine and some good times! And while all around there were signs of summer...
  ...there was a kind of creeping gloom that you could feel in the air. You can see it in this pool picture...Yeah Water! But is that a dark cloud?!...Nah!
  Well, I was wrong! It was a dark cloud! All of a sudden it was pouring rain!!! Wish I had pictures of it, but I was in such a state of disbelief about it that I wasn't even thinking about taking pictures until it was gone!!! :-) Eh! Whatever! Rain just means guilt-free crochet time, more tennis watching,...and basketball too yesterday. (Congratulations to the  Lakers!)
   Besides watching the basketball game with me, hubby kept himself busy too...before the rain hit I mean. He had some leftover wood outside that couldn't just stay a pile of wood! It had to become, or be made to become, something useful.
  Okaaaaay! Now....what are we going to do with it?! "Put it next to the bed!" he said. "Sure honey! Good idea!" :-)) He supports my creativity....I support his!.......Even with my words!

Every Day Love Talk

It's  2:30 in the morning.
The alarm goes off right on cue.
He gets up and shaves and showers;
says "Bye Bye Baby. I love you."

Right around noontime
comes a call on his cell phone,
saying: "I was thinking of you.
I can't  wait til I get home."

When his work day has ended,
he calls to say he's  leaving the job.
I count the minutes I know it will take
before he's  turning our doorknob.

Then there's  3 pecks on the lips,
and "Hi Baby! How was your day?"
"Dinner will be ready in a little while;"
and before we go to bed, we pray.

We curl up in each other's  arms,
giggle and talk, laying in the moonlight;
and its an "I love you" and "I love you too"
and everything in the world seems right.

Saturday, May 29, 2010


My mother had some issues when I was growing up, but to her credit she sure did teach us kids a love for books and reading! She read everything in sight! Sometimes she even passed her books on to us for us to read.
 And read...we did!!! In fact, it's not unusual for my sisters to call, even now, just to share with me what they're reading! I guess, considering all the bad stuff my mom passed on to us, it's a good thing she passed on something really valuable and positive too!...I have wonderful memories of rainy days with all of us piled up in my mother's big bed. There was the sound of the rain pitter pattering down on the tin roof, the smell of my mother's crisp clean sheets all scented with  soap and flowers, and the sound of her voice softly reading some story or the other while we were all huddled up together. *sigh!* That was a wonderful time. (By the way, this custom silhouette is entitled "...Two children Reading Back To Back(not a print)" It's from SilhouettesByCarolin on ETSY I love this shop! Check it out too!)
  I have that same love of reading today, although WHAT I read has changed. It used to be mostly the comics section of the Newspaper, Laura Ingall's Little House on the Prairie series, and Erma Bombeck's books. (FYI, if you want some fun reading...just about one woman's HAVE to read her books!!!) I could read any of her books, any time, still!!!
   But anybody that knows me knows that what I love to read most now are my Bible,
 my Awake and Watchtower magazines (this one on stress...GOOD!),
 and my medical reference books. Both of these are books with symptoms of just about everything you can imagine listed in the back indexes. You can look up your symptom and then go to the page that tells you what it could be, and what you should do about it!
Over the years these books have been invaluable! They've saved me some trips to the doctor for things I could fix at home, and saved me some panic about unfamiliar things that turned out to be nothing to worry about. I think every family...especially with kids...should have some of these books in your house at your fingertips!
  Another one, along the lines of health, that's helped me a lot is this one:
 It's another one of those 'look it up' type of books, but this one instead of listing just symptoms, it lists the ailments themselves (bronchitis, lupus, cancer, etc) and gives you details on how they will affect you, but also the natural way you could choose to treat them. It also lists the names of herbs and so forth, and gives you the info on what they are, their pros and cons,  and what's the best way to use them.
 I have practically read these books to death! LOL You can tell from looking at them!...But I've also done some other, more casual, reading. In fact, I read this book.
It was my one and only book I read from Oprah's suggested book club reads. I'm sure other people loved it, but it didn't hold my attention very well. I like stories with lots of different story lines, and a love story...of course! Not a sex story, but a love story. I don't like explicit stuff or vulgar language. I like my mind to be thoroughly engaged in how the end turns out, to somehow be able to see myself in the story...Years ago, before the movie came out, hubby and I used to sit and read this book to each other after dinner.
  Talk about keeping your attention!!! We had fun reading that book! It was funny how just as we were at the end of reading it...the T.V. movie trailers starting coming on advertising this epic mini-series that was about to come on. I have to say, they certainly did a great job bringing that book to life! Although, as with all movies  based on books probably, there were some things left out. Actually a lot of things left out with this book! It was a good read...of course this was over 25 years ago that I read it!!!
  Oh yeah, I have a favorite poet I love to read too! Maya Angelou. She's written other things besides poetry that I've read, like her book "I know why the Caged Bird sings". But this was the last book of her poems I read. It was given to me as a gift by someone who said that her poem entitled "phenomenal Woman" reminded them of something that I would write! That, to me, was the ultimate complement!
  Between Erma Bombeck and Maya Angelou, style-wise, is ME!!! :-)) And I'll leave you with ME...for today.

In The Mirror, I See Me

The lines of history are there,
just like a book upon the shelf;
And they are written so that you see
that I'm no longer just myself.

I did not see it before now-
my mother's hair and brother's teeth,
my sister's honey-colored skin-
have stolen time, just like a thief.

The mirror's image always was
of me alone-just here and now;
But as I age, and years go by,
I see granddaddy's furrowed brow.

I see my auntie's pug, round nose;
and my uncle's sun-bleached spots.
It is amazing -one-by-one,
the way it all connects the dots.

They have written on the pages
of the book of life I see;
When I look into the mirror
I no longer just see me.

It is a thing I must accept,
instead of fighting who to be.
I will accept my life's reflection,
and I'll smile at what I see,
when, in the mirror, I see me.

Friday, May 28, 2010

Artisans of Western Mass

The peacefuness of my backyard reflects my state of calm these days. The mind in back!!! LOL
 As a tribute to my returned calm, I spent a lot of my relaxed time yesterday getting to know the new team I just joined recently, The Artisans of Western Mass. I went to the site, scrolled down the list of shops, and checked out each one of them...including going to their Facebook pages and 'Like'-ing them!
  I am thrilled to be in this group! They're  wonderfully organized and offer a variety of quality products,  made by hand and locally produced. The varied talents of the team include yarn and textile arts, painting, drawing, jewelry craft, hand made body care, upcycled creations and much more.
   I didn't think I would be this excited about being a member of another team, considering my extreme disappointment with another group I was associated with recently. I won't get into the details of that because I would be here all day...and that's not my style anyway! Just let me say that the communication with my new team has been superb! As refreshing as a cold glass of lemonade on a hot day!
  It's gonna take me a while to REALLY get to know how everything works because I am so SLOW when it comes to knowing my way around computer thing-a-ma-bobs! LOL I've got to figure out how to, and where to, look for schedules of local events; what would be the best ways to be supportive of other group members; and how my physical limitations can be worked around in order to be a visible member of the team. I have no doubt I'll figure it out,...or someone will help me figure it out!
   If anyone reading this blog is a member of the AWM team please introduce yourself in the comment section. I'd love to get to know you!

Meeting new friends

You wear a nervous smile,
and your hand is kind of sweaty,
while you're sizing them all up,
trying not to be too petty.

It's always kind of hard
when you meet somebody new.
When you're newly kind of clumsy
gaining knowledge of who's who.

But eventually the day
slowly curves around the bend
when you finally know each other
and you call each other "friend"!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

3 Featured Shops

One of my favorite things to do is nose around in all of the shops on ETSY. I love seeing creativity in action in all it's different forms. And I'm not partial to just crochet or bead shops either, even though I look at those the most...for obvious reasons!...So I decided to share three shops today. Come and nose around with me.
  The first shop is Jaclyn1423 She specializes in custom bridal jewelry...but everything in her shop is special. This lovely statement piece is titled "Abigail's bronze pendant rose" I like it for obvious has a flower! It's only $24.00 too!
This is her "Smooth jade bracelet" for $20.00.
And this is "Michelle's coral, mustard and sepia swirled earrings" They're $21.00.
   Jaclyn1423's shop is also doing some special work. Be sure to check the "Joey's Hot Dogs" section in her shop. $5 from every sale there will be donated to autism research;  If hot dogs aren't your thing, but you like pieces with the puzzle charm, please convo her and she will work with you to create the right piece for you. And $2 of custom puzzle jewelry will go to autism research as well! Also, her shop is nearing sale No. 100! At the 100th sale, she'll do a random drawing, and one winner will receive $14.23 to spend in her shop! You can see the details on her blog

The Next shop is Fibrous This is the grand opening of her new shop! She is the former owner of the now closed "That Yarn Store". She knits, felts, and is trying to be a better cook...Aren't we all! I love her "Bird's Nest Necklace" $20.00.
 And her "Green Nuno Felt Triangle Shawl" for $20.00.

  And her playful creation, this "Cute Hedgehog"
 This little guy is only $25.00!...Her shop really is full of fibrous goodness, isn't it?!

The last shop I'll feature today is Revival Vintage Design
All of her items are eco friendly and handmade from vintage and recycled fabrics. Her environmentally friendly gifts save the beauty from the past and make them something to treasure for the future. The shop has eco friendly animals, decorative pillows, adorable baby presents and accessories. You can find green gifts for the young, old and newborns, and especially for yourself. If you don't see the the gift you're looking for, just contact her and she'll try her best to help...My favorites include these "Vintage French Pillows" for $40.00 each.
  The picture on the front of them shows a townhouse and a park. It reminds her of the Disney film Aristocats that her children used to love. The scene has so many lovely colors, including red, grey, blue, yellow and green.
  I also like this "Vintage Flowers and Silk Reversible Tote Bag"! It's not like any bag I've seen before. I love the way one handle goes through the other. And it has FLOWERS too!!
  Last, but certainly not least, is this beautiful and colorful addition to Revival zoo. It's "Edgar the Red Eco Friendly at its Best" elephant, made from two vintage fabrics.
 He's only 10 inches tall, but with all of that color and personality he just makes you want to smile! And he's only $25.00!
  Okay, I'm off to do some more nosing around. I'll share what I come up with! :-)) ... (These would have been good things to put in my diary years ago!!!)

My Diary

She was born from my loneliness;
A friend of my own.
Every night I would tell her
all the things I had known.

I'd tell her my secrets,
and all of my lies-
that I kept from the family's
prying eyes.

I'd write down: "Dear Diary",
and then spill my guts
about all of my boyfriends
(the "Dogs" and the "Mutts").

She kept all of my secrets,
not spilling a one;
locked up in her pages.
(Now her job is done!)

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

The Day You Got Married

It's starting out to be a beautiful morning! The sun is just coming up in the backyard, another one of the pansies is looking gorgeous, and calm seems to have ensued. There's rain in the forecast...Usually I'd be UGH! UGH! UGHing all over the place, but I'm feeling pretty good this morning. So, bring on the rain! My mood is so good that all I can think about it is that it makes my pansies look like beautiful!
  This morning also reminds me of how beautiful it was the morning I got married. No, I'm not going to bore you with that story today, but I can tell you that the reason it's on my mind is because my friend is going to be married pretty soon. We received the invitation to her wedding yesterday. I already knew she was getting married, but the invitation made it real.
   She is the mom of Bri, the little girl I was talking about yesterday. She has been a single mom for a loooooong time. In fact, she's never been married. She got into a relationship when she was really young, got pregnant, they broke up, and it's been her and Bri against the world every since...Don't get me wrong, she's had lots of chances! She's beautiful!!! But she always said that because of the way she grew up, dealing with the abuse of men around her, she would not be with a man that was not Bri's biological father until Bri was grown and out of the house. She didn't want to have to worry about Bri being abused by someone...just in case!
   Now she's @#$! years old...I don't dare risk our friendship by telling you her age! LOL...Bri is married and out of the house, and it's her turn!!...But it's been a scary road for her. Imagine not even dating for over 20 years!!!...But she's found a good man...or I should say he's found her! He's been someone she's known for years, casually, seeing him at conventions, assemblies, and so forth. He says he's been seriously watching her for 4 years, but he was too chicken to approach her. He knew how she felt about not dating until her daughter was out of the house, AND...he thought she was so beautiful that she would never give him the time of day!...Ha! Boy was he wrong!!!
    So here I am this morning, looking at bag patterns and staring at baby's breath for inspiration. I've got to get to work!! Where else will she keep her essentials that day?!  She wants it to be the color of the pansy I showed you above. I'm finding out that there's a lot of different ways to go on this bag!!!
   My bag will be crocheted...of course! LOL ... I'm sure that it's NOT going to be the thing that everyone is staring at on the wedding day, but JUST IN CASE there's a future customer there...I want it to be the best bag ever!!! :-))
  My bag will be swinging from her wrist as she comes and goes all day...and the two of them.......are probably not going to notice or know the difference anyway!!! They're gonna be like these two crocodiles were that we saw at Busch Gardens on our honeymoon...OBLIVIOUS! (I know because that's just like me and hubby were the day we got married!)

When We Got Married

The building where we married
was a tiny little church,
with paint chipping everywhere
(like a white, long-standing Birch).

We were Oh! So much in love;
and so our family could know,
we took pictures in the park-
(a week before the rice they'd  throw).

It was bright park sunshine
that poured down upon my face,
just a week before I'd  wear
the long white dress, all trimmed in lace.

Dad drove me in his Caddy,
(all cleaned up, in white, like me.)
Jeff was late, so dad had to
drive around so none would see.

There was no room in the church
for a bride to hide from guests;
They all had to get there first-
To not be seen was quite a test!

Jeff made me wait, But it was fine.
He looked so good in his white tux.
He had washed his green Chevette.
It shined just like a million bucks.

My cousin, dressed up too,
opened the door and let me out.
Everything looked kind of hazy
through my veil, all round about.

My sister, oldest, was in front,
as we went, slow, down the aisle.
I just wanted to see Jeff,
down at the end-with his big smile!

We faced each other, hand-in-hand,
and I looked deep into his face.
He looked shocked! and when I smiled
he still just stared off into space.

Thankfully he said: "I do",
and when I did-there was a lull.
I later asked him what was wrong.
He said: "You were so beautiful!"

It was the greatest day.
The year my life began anew.
I became his wife-his 'Puddles'.
He became my 'Bay'-and 'Boo'.

We had a great reception
(Thanks to things from 'Taylor Rental');
And we had it in dad's  house,
where I could dance with dad-real gentle.

We had a champagne fountain
(But Jeff and I drank apple juice).
I danced all day, without my shoes.
I was relaxed and feeling loose.

My sisters did the serving
of the food they made that day.
Everybody 'cut-a-rug!',
and jeff's  best friend was our D.J.

We drove south, to Florida,
for our one-week honeymoon,
with people honking all the way!
(It was a 'Just Married' car-tune.)

We went to 'Disney World',
'Cypress Gardens' and 'Epcot'.
We also visited 'Busch Gardens'.
(For just one week-we saw a lot!)

For two weeks after we got home,
by Love was how we both were fed,
'cause there wasn't  any money.
(Without my biscuits we'd  be dead!)

So-all these happy memories
are the reason for the core
of our marriage all these years.
And there will be many more-
Now that Jehovah keeps the score!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Slashed Prices

Oh Boy! I've done it now! I finally started to mentally get on the right side of a good mood and what did I do?! Something that's probably going to have me in another bad mood by the end of the week! I started a sale in my ETSY shop...A BIG SALE!!!
  I've been fighting with myself for a long time about my prices. I have wanted to sell my jewelry at around the prices I have them fixed at now for a long time. In fact, from the time I started my shop! But I listened in the forums, read other people's comments all over the net, and took advice from artist and craftspeople who are selling very well. They all said: 'do not devalue your work, don't make customers think your work is not well made by a too low price,  and do not undercut other artists, etc.' So I listened...Meanwhile, all of them are selling their items (maybe not with as fast of a turnover as before, but selling!) and I sold one item over a month ago!! Shortly before that, except for one sale, I think, it had been almost 7 weeks without a sale!!! UGH!
  As fast, and as much, as I crochet this lack of ANY sales thing is making me crazy! I'm just building up stock in my shop! I'm gonna be like that lonely lady with all of her cats, or the lady who had a thin walking path going through her house while she had piles and piles of stuff around her that she hoarded!!! LOL...NO I'M NOT!!! Ha! Ha! Because I'm not listening to the suggestions least for now. I'm having this Sale to see if my prices have been the problem...or if I just need to give up on this creative venture. (No disrespect to anyone that has given me advice is meant here.) I really need to know!
  These necklaces, with a button and my special crocheted backing, are now only $10.00. I'm not getting paid for labor on these, just materials. And, while I hate to waste leftover materials, most of my materials are the good stuff going in! I don't like to work with things that aren't the best to feel between my fingers, and that aren't going to last. (Some exceptions are yarns and things given to me by friends. I still use them, but...Sorry friends!) Okay, these are now $10.00.
These are now $15.00.
And my real labor intensive and creative items are going to be a little bit more.
I'm hoping that after this sale I will have a better idea of whether it has been my pricing this whole time, or it's just not an item to sell online...I say 'not online' because the kids kinda liked my items, especially my earrings and Hand Sandal bracelets, at the craft show last weekend! I didn't SELL any, but they liked them! That's another reason for the pricing changes...Now I'll see!
  The poem I'm leaving you with today is about my friend's daughter, Bri. She was almost like a daughter to me too. I started babysitting her when she was really young. We played dress up (while watching "A Wedding Story" on TLC) and studied together, danced and sang with hand held microphones in my house, and took naps together. She knew how important a nap was!!! She's married now, and a mother herself. I love her and miss her being around very much. She would have been so supportive of my shop pricing change! :-)) I'll tell you more about her later.

Daughter Of My Heart

She's the daughter of my heart,
Not my womb, like most kids are;
And to say she's loved by all
would not be taking it too far.

She was raised well, by her mom.
(Her other mother-besides me!)
SHE was there to wipe her runny nose,
and bounce her on her knee.

I came along much later;
and I'm thankful for the chance
to share her life a little,
and to see her spirit dance.

She's the daughter of my heart,
the daughter that we never had;
The child I wanted to give Jeff
so that, one day, he'd be a dad.

I didn't get to burp her,
or to read a bedtime story.
I didn't see her sick
with chicken pox, and have to worry.

We love her timely visits,
and her pictures everywhere;
And when her and Jeff play cards
how fun to hear her yell "No Fair"!

For me, I love our little talks,
our spiritual time-our joking too.
She's the daughter of my heart,
because no womb would really do!

Monday, May 24, 2010

Spring Forms

Spring...just fabulous!!! Rain, gnats, not being able to breathe because of all of the pollen...Okay already!!! Just the pollen thing alone is driving me batty! My hubby too! Every time he goes out of the house and comes back in he has to take a quick shower before he gets near me! I am so allergic! And considering that we have this thing where we don't leave the house or come back into the house without giving each other a little kiss, his quick showers are getting a bit much!...As you can see, I'm not in the best of form today. My mood is not good, and I've been up and down all night!
  I think I really did myself in with my little "Nap" yesterday. I was so tired...actually exhausted...all day. (Hormones!) So I decided that I would put my lovely C-Pap machine on and take a little nap. This was at around 6:30 p.m. Just about a half an hour was all I rejuvenate me. I was listening to the French Open tennis in the background, so I was sure I wouldn't stay asleep long. (I don't like to miss anything with my tennis!)
   Cut to 10:30p.m.!!! Hubby said: "I thought you just wanted to take a nap! I tried to wake you up 3 times. Kuzzey won! (That's the nickname for Svetlana Kuznetsova)" UGH! I missed my match, and I was still feeling as tired as I did when I went to take my "nap"! So I got up, had hubby make me a hamburger, watched some tennis, chatted and giggled with hubby,...he was trying to make me feel better...and went down for another little "Nap". This was around 3:30 a.m....Back up I came at around 6:00 a.m.! I'm done!!! I decided to open my package that came on Saturday. (You know I haven't been in the best of mood when a package comes in the mail...a BIG one too...and I don't start tearing into it right away!!) And WOW! I think this just might put me in a better mood!
Look at my goodies I got!
I ordered these jewelry forms so that I can re-take a lot of the pictures of my necklaces in my shop. My photos are so bad! I'm convinced that nobody is buying my little beauties because they can't really see them!...Shhhh! Don't burst my bubble about least not today!!! I'm not in a good enough mood to take it that my jewelry may never sell!!!...You can tell me that NEXT week! Then I can take it...and tell you I DON'T CARE! Today, I'm two seconds away from tears.....Good thing I know it's hormones. That doesn't make it feel any better, but it does keep me in a fairly level mind.
  Oh Yeah, there was something else in the bottom of the box too!
More boxes!!!...Maybe I can box up this mood and ship it out of here!!! Does this kind of funk ever happen to you?! PLEASE encourage me! I need it!...Maybe poetry can do it!

Spring Is The Rain

Spring is the rain,
when the flowers grow again,
and new life is let remain.
After months of drench and drain,
you now see roses down the lane.

Spring is the rain,
and the budding of the grain,
and birds, out your window pane.
When the weather makes you sane,
and its no longer on your brain,
'cause there's no cold to give you pain.

Spring is the rain-
the time for traveling on the train,
for watching trees, not weather vanes,
and raking leaves-Autumn's disdain.
You lift your head, just like a crane,
and now your thought's no longer vain.
You think of seasons that were plain,
but now its blooming, down on Main,
because spring is the rain.