Distracting Myself With Their Stories...

        I saw this chicken on Simply Chicks blog a while back. It had the caption "What ch'you lookin' at?"...but more than the words, it's the look on his face that I'm feeling today. Kinda stunned...fixed in one position...needing some distraction.

      As I was writing this post yesterday, talking about what an easy Sunday morning hubby and I were having, the phone rang. The name on the Caller I.D. was a very familiar name, but it was someone we hadn't talked to personally in years.

     Hubby went in the other room to talk to them, so that he wouldn't distract me while I was finishing up my blog post...A few minutes later I was conscious that he was back in the room. But when I looked up I saw that he had tears streaming down his face. Then he said it..."Peaches died".

     That's how that long day started. It's hard to believe that it was less than 24 hours ago...'Peaches' was my girlfriend. She and I were the same age, except for the fact that I am a month older. Something she jokingly would say 'EVERY TIME' it was mentioned that we were the same age. ^_^

      I've been crying ever since I heard hubby say those two words. The tears come simultaneously with memories of us laughing, joking, shopping, eating, and playing cards....Oh! She was as fierce a 'Spades' player as me! :-] And in our group of friends she was the one I always wanted as my partner...even more than my hubby! He was easily distracted with food. ^_^...

     Today I find myself distracted...and, among other things, wanting to remind you all that today is the last day you can enter the Giveaway.
       Also...when we were cleaning the house last week we came across some things...

      ...a handmade pin cushion that I used to use regularly when I sewed, or was pinning pieces of my crochet in place to sew it.

           A little cross-stitched bookmark of a lamb...

           ...An old Bible student of mine made it for me and sent it to me years ago. She knew how many books I was regularly reading at the time, and she knew I could use it!...and I did...for a while. I hadn't seen it in a long time. It had been 'out of sight, out of mind'.

        A packet of emergency sewing thread...that was in the hole of the antique 'Singer' sewing machine I was given by a neighbor many years ago. I still have the sewing machine...and the thread.

           A little girl's plastic butterfly ring that I found in the dirt outside on the ground...

      ...the day I was being rushed to the hospital. The paramedics lowered the bed to the ground right before they lifted it to put me in the truck. I picked up this ring while I was down on the ground...

          Some leftover silver lame' thread. I must have crocheted one of my flowers out of this or something. I can't remember. But maybe I can make one out of the rest of it...

        I don't know what these plastic rings, with the little piece jutting out from their side, were even for! Or why I still have them...still in their little plastic bag...

      A beautiful seemingly hand-painted tile butterfly plague...

         I can't remember whether I bought it, or it was a gift from somebody....Sorry, if it was a gift. I know it's beautiful though. And I know that it won't get lost again. It has a little wooden kick-stand in the back so you can prop it up on a side table. It works to prop it up on a window sill too. And that's it's permanent home in my house now.

       Funny how everything has a story...or a memory. And funny how you can take all of that for granted until you're suddenly faced with it again. Or shocked out of distraction...Yes, I'm thinking of my 'Peaches'. ;'_'; It's gonna be another long day today I can already see...I'm so thankful for my God's hand to hold, and my friend's ears to bend, and my hubby's broad and loving shoulders to lean on...and headbands!

        I've been crocheting them like crazy!!!...

             This gray one, with an attached gray flower and a ceramic button...

         This pink and brown specialty yarn one, with the patterned copper button...

  

       And last night I made this one...out of the leftover pieces of yarn I had in front of me...

          It has purple angel hair and chocolate brown yarn, with a red, white and black mixed together section in the middle. It already has a story. A story of how useful the making of it was for distraction...I don't know if anybody will ever buy it, but I would. I know it's story...and I already love it because of it...And I think 'Peaches' would have loved it too. 

My World Just Got A Little Smaller 

My world just got a little smaller,
with a phone call and a look.
My husband's tears were rolling freely
That was all the time it took...

...to put my life into a weird slow motion,
and my feelings into overdrive;
to take my tears to a steady climbing,
and all my memories in a head-long dive.

I have lost someone I love.
Someone so precious and dear to me.
And while I'm conscious of why she died,
and thankful she's in God's memory...

...I still will miss her Oh! So much!
I hear her laughter in my ears.
I see her joking with her sister,
and us chatting about our fears.

I know that death is never easy.
I know that time will help it some.
But, all this over-whelming sadness,
I don't know where it comes from.

The sound of people laughing
or a smile upon their face
makes me strangely angry and
it sets my sad heart at a pace.

I wanna be supportive
say all the right things...At least try!
But I find myself lethargic,
and all I wanna do is cry.

I wanna pull the covers up
and close the shades until it's gone...
this aching feeling that it's ringing,
but I can't get her on the phone.

My world just got a little smaller.
My girlfriend left it waaay too soon.
I know in time it will get better,
but time won't heal this gaping wound.